I was scrolling through the Bible app one day in between class. I needed an extra boost in the middle of the day, and I decided to search for something related to "queen/queendom". One of the results was the verse above... That beautifully written verse above. That sweet gentle reminder that Mordecai had to give to Esther before she met with the king. He had to remind her to follow the instructions, no matter how hard, how crazy, or how "unnecessary" she thought they were. She was in the position she was in for a certain reason. I can imagine she probably thought, "This is NOT what I'm supposed to be doing right now. I'm supposed to be with my family and friends on the outside of this palace, having my fun. Why did I even come here? Why did he choose ME?" If you read Chapter 4 before verse 14, you'll see that she was contemplating her calling. She was contemplating what God had sent her to the palace to do. She had even began to make excuses for why she could not go through with it.
As I pondered this verse, I thought to myself "WOW! This is how I feel." I'm serving God, trying to build this relationship with Him, and I have this "pull" on me. This undeniable "pull" that I couldn't shake. No matter how much I ignored, no matter how much work I tried to accomplish, I could not get away. So now I'm thinking, okay what do You want Ty to do? I'm one of the new Christian kids on the block. I mean I've been saved a long time, but I'm just now delving into this really deep relationship with You Lord and You want me to do something? Nah, can't be. Well the "pull" never stopped and here I am writing this post lol. (yes I used lol because that's exactly what I did!) So basically, now that I'm getting myself together, You want me to help others...right now? Whew, talk about pressure.
You can only imagine how I felt when this verse dropped right in my lap. It was like someone was holding a spotlight and saying "SEE THIS IS YOU! YOU GOTTA GO ALL IN AND SPEAK UP! IT'S SOMEBODY OUT THERE DEPENDING ON YOU STEPPING INTO THAT ROYALTY!" That verse literally pushed me to start writing this blog. It's not a whole lot, but it's a start.
I really want to encourage someone who may feel like me. Someone who doesn't feel like they have it all together. God uses the unqualified for His biggest jobs. When you feel out of place or that "the church" won't accept you (which is worthy of a whooole nother blog post), remember that God qualifies You for his work. You canNOT be silent in a time like this if He has given you a Word for this generation, you have to do it. Like right now! If He's given you a ministry to create, go for it. It might not be perfect right now, but you can really be hindering your own growth. "How Ty?" BECAUSE in the process helping others, you can gain revelation about your own true self. You have to operate in that calling even if it isn't all the way clear. Don't allow your past, your family (like Esther), your relationship status with God right now, or whatever the case to STOP you from becoming ROYALTY for such a time as this.
Said ALL that to say, that is why I named this blog Simply RoyalTy (a play on my nickname). God has called me to a higher place, a higher calling, into a place of ROYALTY to do something so amazingly special for His people...
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